My left hand

Since i wake up this morning, i have a strange feeling. It is the feeling, such that my left hand is not part of my body anymore. Please don't leave me, my left hand... i can do nothing without you.

You are part of my body. My feeling, my body, can't depart away from you. Do you know my feeling? It is already part of my body, although i seldom think about you, but i do care about you. Leaving me means that i am not a complete person anymore.

So, please don't leave me alone. Nobody ask the God to make you part of my body, but i do.

谁叫你是我身体的一部分？

Scholarship

Suddenly i feel that i am very lucky, because i don't need to worry about my financial problem.

After talking to my juniors (or super-grand-juniors), they need to worry about their future, their planning, as they don't get any scholarship (especially Shell, Petronas and JPA). Now they need to get loan from JPA or Bank to further their study at oversea (oversea? must be oversea?). Now i can understand abit (only abit) why so many student are crazying over JPA scholarship and other well-known scholarship bodies. Yet, lucky comes with sacrifice. But i won't think about it now.

By helping others to solve their problems, sometime you will learn something in return. You will know more everytime you help others, besides getting their gratitude and their respect. But it is another story for me.

Thank to Nesha and Jeffrey!

Cancer - Part 2

The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiac. Most Artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that "Charm" you. He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for a chance.

Cancer is controlled by Moon and the moon change its shape daily. Wow, i admit my mood (as for current me) is quite unstable, and changing all the time... well, it holds some truth. I am getting sick of that, and i don't know what to do now.

I always wait for chance? Yup, i strongly agree this point, but isn't chance the success that you create by yourself? You always want to success, yet you wait for chance to come? Come on, you are contradicting yourself. Just like what i am doing now? No, i must change it. You create chance and chance will auto come to you.

But my constantly changing personality "charm" others? Is there anyone out there that can advise me more on that? I really confuse now.

Cancer - Part 1

CANCER MAN

The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiac. Most Artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that "Charm" you. He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for a chance.

The most sensitive man who can not stand rejection. He cares what other people feel or think of him. He hates loosing face and he tends to over protected himself, so sometimes people might think he is a cold person.

Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer. A mystery and complexity play a major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be very funny, very quiet, suddenly very sad. Living with him could be very unexpected, for you will not know what is his next mood. If you like excitement and surprise, you have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored.

He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time always act proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to adjust to his rapid changes. A very difficult type to find woman indeed.

Unlike many other Zodiac, if he is mad then you better get out of that room. He will calm down by himself. Giving him a slight touch on his shoulders or concerned facial _expression are enough. He loves his mother, so try to be his mother favorite, but do not act like his mother!

-End-

梦3：累得心碎

我，累了，真的累了。
我，病了，病得不轻。
我，心碎，碎得无形。
我，沉默，静得无声。
我，伤悲，伤的彻底。
我，忘了，忘得了吗？
我，睡了，睡得着吗？

Some rumbling on a day that i fell sick and want to vomit. The feeling is not nice at all.

你要的不是我 - Song 7

你要的不是我 - 林俊杰
（I, someone you forget)

怎么能忘时间多长
你快乐吗想代替你回答
你知道吗走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂沉默伤悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落

你快乐吗，想代替你回答，但你要的不是我。。。

你要的不是我的答案。。。


心碎的日子 20/5

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I?
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

by Robert Frost

Life is all about choice. But as for the current me, i don't want to leave regret on my decision.

Oh ya, this is the English literature that i read during my SPM year. That makes all the difference.

Mother's Day

“在你自己的故事背後，永遠有你母親的故事，因為你的故事得從她那兒開始講。”

"Every story of yourself is mended by your mother, because it always starts with her."

Mother, I love you. 妈妈，我爱你。请原谅我的无知。

Peaceful

You Are 80% Peaceful

You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on. Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat. Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize.

How Peaceful Are You?

I shall be more peaceful, but it is another story by the way.

五月天 Love in the May

Wow, May can be so lovely... ^-^

Lyric of 五月天 (Love in the May):
黄金海岸的岸边 我们肩并著肩;
洁净的蓝天 清澈的水面 吻成一条海平线
看你温柔的双眼 弹著吉他的弦;
歌词是诺言 旋律是依恋 唱出一首五月天

五月的天 刚诞生的夏天
我们之间 才完成的爱恋
紧握的手里面 有好多明天
五月的天 梦开始要鲜豔
前方蜿蜒 一长串的心愿
我们一天一天 慢慢实现

大雨冲走了昨天 青春乌云几片
彩虹的旁边 有星星几点 迫不及待在眨眼
海风味道变香甜 沙滩镶满亮片
你哼著永远 我和著不变 合唱一首五月天

RAP 海浪 拼命欢呼跳跃 一遍又一遍
鼓励我们 看谁先吻谁的脸
为这五月之恋 再添一个逗点
再多的五月天 怕也不够我们沉醉

海燕 身边来回盘旋 扮演著领队
彷佛听见幸福在前面不远
为这五月之恋 再添一点信念
往後的五月天 和你走到比永远还远

An unusual depressing day ^-^ ==+

Starting of a Blog...

Just a mark, that i am having my unusual depressing mood by the time i reach my hostel from work. I even lost my interest to cook delicious food and instant noodles tasted so awful than never before. Even BBQ can't arouse my interest. Everything seem to be so dead, dreadful...., but the day is still bright....

And it proved that i think too much and worry too much, according to jhan yhan and vee lynn. Hehe, thank for your help. ^-^

To vee lynn:
I don't know if i scare you at your own room, as a girl's room is the safest place in her heart, but it will be ok. You will see me in that state for the 1st time and for the last time. That is my promise to you. You may not know my actual problem (as you tell me), but i indirect tell you my minor problem, and it links to my major depression. I am the person, who likes to think 10 steps further than current move. It might seem unimportant for the time being, but you will know the consequence very soon. For the time being, just sit down and you will be in my middle of heart soon...

To jhan yhan:
Haha, since INTEC, i know you. I really thank God for his help, HIS HELP in sending you to be at my side, today. Your place in my heart is unmovable. I don't know the reason, but you are the 1st person that i tell all my secret. Maybe vee lynn (the 1st girl that know parts of my secret) will be catching up, but hehe, it will happen when the time ripes. Haha, an-all-man-talk. Last time, i am the listener, but today you are my listener. A role-changing playing game.

To God:
Thank you again for listening to my prayer. You are my strength and you are my friend in the Heaven. Together, we will be better. Guide me as you guide me in the yesterday world. Thank you God. With your blessing, i shall arouse, i shall be better, i shall be a better man. Praying in the God name, Jesus Christ. 奉我主耶稣的名求。

End of Blog.

阿门。

Hiro Nakamura? Huh?

"Hiro Nakamura is 1 of the characters of Heroes series."

Who is Hiro Nakamura? Me? Hero? zzz...zzz...zzz...zzz... ==!!

This is what the website saying:

Wow, you are Hiro Nakamura!

Such a dreamer! Even when you're stuck in a rut, you still reach for the stars. Happy-go-lucky and trusting you may be, but silly you're not — you've definitely got a practical side. And no matter what the future holds for you, we know you'll have fun along the way!

Do i look like him? Someone says that i do look like him... hai yo...

Anyway, try this website (heroes) to find out which Hero you are.

Have fun! ^-^

Or, for those who want to know more about "Heroes", you can visit the following website: Wikipedia - Heroes and Heroes official website.

爱我，非你莫属

你知道嗎？我很喜歡牽著你的手的感覺。。。

懂得讓我微笑的人，再沒有誰比你更有天份闖進我的心門

哎，我心的縫隙。。。

我想除了你，任誰也無法填補這空虛。

改：锦运，曲：Tank

Untitled

My feeling is out of control now. And it will be hard to control now.

Review (7/5): Wait, wait, wait? What is hard to control? My feeling? Erm... strange.

Moment (10/5): Haha, my emotion is changing everyday. It is myself, that causes unwanted burden onto myself. But i am kinda frenzied by my own act also.

梦2: 舞

Memory sealed in "Tanz in den Mai" - Deep Club Heidelberg
Thank you to

1. Vee Lynn (for entertaining me so much, i simply love it. Shall we dance?)
2. Meilina (thank for joining and sit beside me when i am tired)
3. Jhan Yhan (why you so tall, i can't dance with you ==)
4. Eric (Our clubbing boss)
5. Jian Nong (Cool)
6. Yvonne (The pretty girl)
   
7. The Nicholas Twin (^-^)